Prayers that get answered

I had this nasty fight with my wife, walked out in a huff, well! did i tell you it was sunday evening. I decided to go to church, cursing and grinding my teeth at the plight of my life. I hated every moment. Scowling at every passerby, the auto's and the call centre cabs were easy targets. well there wasn't any way i would be pleased.
My heart was pounding, a searing pain through my chest, i was begining to wonder if my heart was failing on me. "Hang on", i told myself, i am 31 how could i get a heart attack, i wasn't sweating, there was no radiating pain on my left hand. I wasn't happy, i really did not want to live.
I reached the church late, the priest was on with his Sermon, not a word sank in. I was lost in my thoughts. I mass was winding down. I was praying, but, i can't remember what i was asking for, i guess i was asking for peace of mind, i was asking to be heard. I was asking to be understood, and i was asking to be loved and consoled.

I said, "send me a sign", and the choir was at it, some familar song, that my school teacher had taught us, i never sing, don't know why i hummed that tune, and flash there it was - "Make me a channel of your peace, where there is hatered let be bring your love, where there is injury your pardon lord, ....... Oh, master grant that i may never seek, to be consoled than to console, to be understood than to understand, and to love you with all my soul. I froze, felt at peace..

A sudden surge of calmness covered me and i was filled with patience...ran to my car, picked up the phone and quickly sent a message apologising, and i meant it from the bottom of my heart, no conditons applied.

I was back to where i started, i had always believed life works itself out and I knew it will, and thats exactly what happened the next day.

The solution to my problem - was right there, my parents walked to my room, told me what i should do, i only needed to let my gaurd down and see it, on any other day i would have just refused to, but not today. As they walked out of the room,but i knew the answer was lying next door, i became sad. I was trying to solve this for so long, for as long as i can remember, i lost my battle, felt very limp, and miserable.

But, i had to see the light, my prayers of yesterday, answered. I had to just see it, and what i wanted was right there, all i stood for was restored, actually it had never fallen apart, i had asked for answers, it comes in varoius forms, with a little twist, you just have to have the calmness of the mind to see it...